Why can't I forgive?

Yes. It is an interesting thing. It is one of the commandments that we all know what should follow, we can quote the scriptures, we can tell someone else to do it, we can say we do it, say we did it....and yet not do it. Maybe it's just a thorn in the flesh that God is not delivering us from for a reason. Maybe us holding unforgiveness brings some greater good, like helping others to be able to move on and not be waiting for someone to say I'm sorry.

I will say I saw a clip of Passion of the Christ Where they had just erected the cross and the thief started mocking Christ. The "good thief" asked for forgiveness. Huge moment - in the midst of Christ brokeness, he was able to forgive the breakers. Not after he had healed, but while all of his wombs were open.